Monday, August 17, 2015
My Running Chonicles:Freedom
I have experienced phantom leg pains in my left leg for as long as I could remember as a result of paralytic polio followed by repeated child sexual assault and then 5 major orthopedic surgeries.. I had learned to not focus on them and to certainly not turn up the volume when they happened. In a recent massage therapy treatment with Jeffrey, Principal and Owner of Spratt Muscular Therapies LLC as I shared with him that I had experienced the phantom pains and told him I didn't focus on them, he suggested the analogy of living in a house and being familiar with all the different sounds. "If you weren't familiar with the house, and perhaps were a guest," he went on to say, "you might get really alarmed but once you allow yourself to feel familiar in your home, you can easily dismiss it and say, 'oh yeah it's just the furnace.'"
In Thursday's treatment, I could feel a lot of the past coming to the surface as Jeffry worked deeply yet tenderly on my quads and my arms. I had the stunning realization of all that I lived through and had a genuine appreciation for the miracle of my life.
During Saturday's training run, my mind was working through a lot of what came to the surface. Interestingly enough, when I hit the ground, something broke free within me and in my left leg. My first thought was, "Okay Universe do we really need to make it this dramatic and intense?" But then I knew in an instant the energetic connection to my past was severed!
I have had to work so hard to overcome all the challenges of the experiences of my past and my therapy, my medicine and my path to feeling free has been and continues to be through running. Yet I had repeatedly hit a wall in my running that I finally have been able to move beyond through partnering with Jeffrey.
I experience the total grace each week with Jeffrey as he combines both sports massage to address my needs as a runner and healing trauma through positive quality touch. I have been to so many therapists and body workers and energy healers on a quest to find someone who would and could partner with me to help me go the distance. How amazing that Jeffrey's tag line is "Reclaim Life. Reclaim Advantage." Only it's so much more than a tag line. He has such a commitment and love for the work that comes through every mindful movement he makes with his hands and what he says during treatments from his heart. He also uses humor which facilitates the healing process.
After a few days of wrestling with unfinished business from the past after last Thursday's treatment, taking a tumble on the pavement, getting up and running another 1.5 miles to complete our 6.5 mile training run for the Bermuda Half Marathon, I fee unbridled freedom and now know in every fiber of my being that I am ready to go the distance this time!
A dark horse
ready to quit
battered and bruised
a foal fouled
yet Spirit unbroken
a thoroughbred deep inside
all she needed was a chance
someone to believe in her
a horse whisperer
in the mist
amidst fog and foliage
into the champion she was always meant to be.
From "Feel the Heal: An Anthology of Poems to Heal Your Life" available along with all of my books on Amazon.