Tuesday, September 29, 2015
My Running Chronicles: Momentum, Results and Rebuilding - It's a Miracle!
I'm astounded by the momentum in my healing journey. I used to have to be incredibly mindful and cautious about my schedule never knowing when fatigue would kick me in the behind. But now I am working and training and feeling energized, whole and vibrant.
The results I experience from my work with Jeffrey Spratt, MT, Owner and Principal of Spratt Muscular Therapies, LLC is miraculous. The power of positive touch with Jeffrey who has healing hands and a compassionate heart has been the game changer in my life. I am blessed. This morning the alarm went off at 6:00am. It was dark and I hesitated for a moment but after meditation, Tom and I hit the floor for a plank, crunches and clams and literally ran out the door for our training run. I am feeling free in my body and love to run. My pace hit a 14:00 minute mile although Nike+ didn't reflect in the overall time because it did not accurately pause.
I was able to put on a running shirt that I couldn't fit into even a week ago.
I felt strong, confident and capable as a runner knowing this time indeed I am going the distance!
After our run I poured sweat and it felt amazing to feel sweat dripping off of my body after a great workout. You see I used to be timid and fearful about my body and what it could and could not do. I was also dragging with the weight of traumatic memories. Until I let go of holding and emotions in last Thursday's treatment, I didn't realize how tightly I was holding onto myself. Until I heard Jeffrey utter the words, "Shhh. You're safe. Let it all go. Yes I know it was horrible," I couldn't relax and begin the process of rebuilding.
As I trained in the pool at WaveHealth yesterday I could feel head tremors intensify ... only they were not tremors of terror -- I could feel my chi - my life force working to build a new neural net. As I watched the reflection of the waves on the wall, I had the awareness that paralytic polio and violence were like bombs that took out bridges in my nervous system. But now - now I have this amazing opportunity to rebuild. The gunk has cleared and new clean energy flows. There are times when the tremors stop completely. There is an ebb and flow to the process and I can feel and see the end point in this process.
We have used so many analogies to capture the experience of healing. I can imagine the new beautiful bridges in my system from my spinal cord to my head and down my arms all the way to my fingers. At last Thursday's launch of Boston Magazine's Best of Boston Chinese Edition, I was able to pick up appetizers with steady hands. I can feel this happening more and more. Momentum. Success breeds success. Results and rebuilding all happening.
Today I saw one of my friend's that I had not seen since last October at the Cape Cod Marathon weekend. She commented how well I looked; how strong and healthy and fit I looked. She knows my journey and has been incredibly supportive of me. I thought back to how I felt a year ago and how I feel today. I never gave up. I kept searching. I held onto hope knowing I could do this and now with Jeffrey I CAN and AM doing this!
After all I lived through and now at the age of 62 years old I am back to work, training for a half marathon, and rebuilding my nervous system creating a brand spanking new mind body - well all I can say is it's a miracle!